A new bowl

Well I've decided to start a new bowl, a new place to put all of my thoughts and the things that go on in my life and where I can come back and just connect the dots. I'm not sure how much in detail this may go or if it will be very shallow or even a mixture of both but only time will tell. Currently my life is good. I have a good job, great friends, and a family that loves me, what else do I need?

How about a brother that can be free from his depression, the alcohol that still seems to want to take hold and the cutting that allows him to feel in some small part in control. Yep, its difficult to deal with because I don't know how to deal with it. You hear about other people who have friends or family members that suffer with it, but it seems so distant because it doesn't involve you. But what if it really does? How does one deal with it? I really don't know. I've always been a quiet person, the one that everyone comes to just to unload their problems, a listening ear. I'm not expected to have the answers or give the advice that they might need, I'm just there to listen and to show that I care. So how do I show this to a brother who I hardly see because of scheduling differences, that even though I'm not saying it, I do still love him and that I do still pray for him? He'd been doing so well for so long, and now seems to be backsliding. I'm thankful for my friends from church who are able to talk to him and give him advice and be there for him when I'm not. Occasionally I do feel resentful about it, because I keep thinking 'What would my life be if my brother wasn't this way?' But I have to constantly remind myself that its not his fault. I love my brother and I wish I knew how best to help him but I don't and I know that the only thing that I can continue to do is pray for him everyday and pray that God will intercede and bring him out of a depression stage, keep him away from the alcohol, and stop him from cutting.